Ello, my name is Delaney, I’m 15 1/2 years old. I am making this posg about Blood On The Dance Floor, so I’d keep scrolling if you don’t care or want to hate.
BOTDF was introduced to me in the 7th grade- for me that was about late 2010. It was one of my older friends playing I ♥ Hello Kitty. I acted like I liked it, and the truth was that it was very awkward at the time because I was an ‘innocent’ Christian girl. I left the band alone until late 2011, when they were brought up again by my on-again off-again girlfriend. This time, I loved the music. I immediatley had all their songs downloaded to my iPod. At this time I was experiencing mild depression, amd their music made me upbeat and happy- it motivated me. I had heard every new song as soon as it came out, and was constantly falling in love with them. The boys’ message also pierced my heart- as I saw more of them, the more I fell in love with both of them and their mantra. I couldn’t believe their message of love. And then I slipped very deeply into depression and gained a new mental illness- anxiety. Along with the bullying I constantly endured, my parents were going through a very nasty divorce and my mother always told me that my father did not want me, and I was denied in-person contact for 5 months, being fed those lies. And then, all the sudden, BOTDF was there even more for me. I barely had my earbuds outbof my ears. They had came out with You Are The Heart- and I downloaded it to my phone, in tears at the lyrics. Skip two months- I cussed out my dad, I hit my brother, and told my mother I hated her. I was in a world of hurt, and I was untying the rope in the back of my closet and retying it into a noose. I had my earbuds in, though, listening to constant screaming and bawling my eyes out. And then, the screaming suddenly stopped and a new, softer tune came on. You Are The Heart. I collapsed onto my bed, crying harder into the pillow as I listened. I won’t go into details, because it was a very nasty night after that. But BOTDF saved my life that night- and I never knew this band would mean so much to me…. but they do. And you know what? I’m really really glad, because now I have an awesome life. So, I can promise you that things do get better. Thank you BOTDF. I am now 10 months free of self harm. Thank you.